What to do?

I am sitting here after working for some time on a programming assignment and just do not know what to do. The course material consists of a textbook and assignments - nothing to tell you how or give beginners basics.
I have no clue how to code some of these lines to get the correct reaction when pushing a button and cannot find an answer in the textbook - I feel so incompetent! I can understand having time on my side (maybe a year course) but to expect this sort of understanding within a semester seems crazy to me. Again, maybe it is just me and my incapacity to understand / comprehend / figure out what coding works, and for what reasons, without any outside help.

Anyway, I am now putting it aside and am putting some thoughts down to try forget about things for a while.
I am still feeling sick - possibly even more so than yesterday - and am not looking forward to having to go back to work! It is not that I don't enjoy work but sheesh! I just want to be able to get up when ready to and see children off to school, read something without feeling guilty, bake something (yes I do enjoy being in the kitchen) or just do nothing if I wanted to. I realise that I am not unique in wantinng this sort of thing but it doesn't change the fact...

Ruby is out right now finalising some things for one of the members of our ward (Springs Ward of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints) who recently lost her husband to cancer. While she is out doing that she is also collecting the final ingredients for supper tonight. We are going to make hamburgers and also some marshmallow for after - we will see how it turns out. I was really looking forward to this supper but the way I am feeling right now I am not to concerned one way or the other. poor me.

I have nothing to complain about really - "Spring has sprung" as they say and it is really a beautiful evening. Kyle and Jesse are outside playing, the birds are singing and I see the reddish light of the setting sun on the trees from where I am sitting. As I sit here I think of how lucky I am to be able to enjoy all that I do. I really am blessed!

Update - 8:30pm
The food and pudding turned out pretty good (even if I do say so myself), the marshmallows are a success thanks to my good wife and her Kenwood mixer. The whole thing turned out easier than I thought it would and the children seem to love them although they will devour anything with sugar in it so maybe a little deflation to the ego.
Thanks to Jethro and Selcourt Meats and especially to Ruby!